Life comes at you fast...

Well, I know that mentioned before that I'd like to buy the bakery I work for.  That is no longer the case, as my mother has essentially cut me off (and I've obliged her by not calling) so the money for the down payment has gone bye bye.  And I realized that I'm ok with that.  I realized long ago (which is sad, really, considering how much I have NOT changed since then) that I can't handle my personal finances.  And how am I gonna run a successful business if I can't take care of my own finances.  I haven't paid a full month's rent by myself since I was living in a $350 a month studio when I was 19.  I'm 32.  Do the math.  So, I've decided to:
*break my lease and move into a place where I will spend almost $325 less a month
*put together a serious, unflexible budget
*start smoking rollies, and hopefully quit altogether
*try and take care of my debt, one little bit at a time
*quit my job, which is awesome but doesn't offer any benefits or long-term security, and start applying elsewhere
*cut waaaaay back on the drinkin'

So far, it's working.  Ok, only a couple things, like the drinking and the rollies.  I've been smoking much less since I got the pouch of tobacco on Friday night; I only had one yesterday and none so far tonight.  I even had a couple beers Friday night and only smoked a few.  So that's good.  Updates on the efficacy of the rest as they are realized.